Saturday, November 14, 2009
today i am damn fucking piss off.. by U.. and that's right is U.. KNN.. u tink i am a fucking child is it.. can lie to me again n again.. ccb.. u can just mainly say those very nice stuff to me after quarrel or all after all those SHIT.. u go Fuck ur ..... la.. u this bloody MF.. i really had enough le.. wat can be done to let u got nothing at all.. wat can let u feel that u are only alone and lose everytink.. y u always love to lie.. i realy hope every1 can jus treat u lik how u treat me.. DAMN.. i really wanna go crazy le.. FUCK U.. KNN.. CCB.. GO AND DIE LA..
-our
love story ;
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
ytday 11.11.09.. it happen at ah gu house staircase.. i am so sad and shock that all this is happening to me.. i never thought that this will happen to me.. he actually wanna hit me.. and push me away in a very hard strength.. i'm really very heartbroken.. i really feel that i better give up now... as all of them say that if a guy will hit u means no matter he say how many time he will change, he won't change de.. i really feel so heart pain.. it's worst than dying.. i trying to force myself dun cry but it's seem so hard.. till now when i think back i will cry.. he will say all those tinks that hurt me so badly, i can know what place i stand inside his heart.. I REALLY FUCKING HATE MYSELF... why everyday so many ppl die, y can't just i die.. mayb after i die i won't feel anymore pain le..
-our
love story ;
Saturday, May 30, 2009
TUOXIE - by jolin.
English translation by lixss.
你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
You always love to make up lies,
but im responsible for acting along with you.
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
All the changes i made,
is just so i could enter your world.
这情节重复了一百遍
This scene has repeated so many times,
才发现是你的心太野
Only then i realised that your heart is too wild.
你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
You drew the border between us,
i must follow the rules.
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
All my time have been prioritised for you.
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
Unknowingly, I loved to the point where i didn't dare to take any risks,
成了你的傀儡一年两年
Being your puppet for so long,
才看见我有多狼狈
Then i finally realised how pathetic i've been.
爱到妥协到头来还是无解
A compromised love, still remains unresolved in the end.
绑着你不让你飞
Tied you up not letting you fly,
历史不断重演我好累
But history keep repeating, it's exhuasting.
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
A compromised love, yet the story could not be rewrittened.
你已下最后通牒
Once you made your ultimatum,
我躲在我的世界
I hid in my own world
你只是害怕一个人睡
You are just afraid of sleeping alone,
我不想再为你掉泪
I no longer want to cry for you again.
我了解不会变不再徘徊
I understand that you will never change,
I shouldn't ponder anymore
开始自己的明天
I'll start over again myself tomorrow..
-our
love story ;
TUOXIE - by jolin.
English translation by lixss.
你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
You always love to make up lies,
but im responsible for acting along with you.
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
All the changes i made,
is just so i could enter your world.
这情节重复了一百遍
This scene has repeated so many times,
才发现是你的心太野
Only then i realised that your heart is too wild.
你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
You drew the border between us,
i must follow the rules.
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
All my time have been prioritised for you.
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
Unknowingly, I loved to the point where i didn't dare to take any risks,
成了你的傀儡一年两年
Being your puppet for so long,
才看见我有多狼狈
Then i finally realised how pathetic i've been.
爱到妥协到头来还是无解
A compromised love, still remains unresolved in the end.
绑着你不让你飞
Tied you up not letting you fly,
历史不断重演我好累
But history keep repeating, it's exhuasting.
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
A compromised love, yet the story could not be rewrittened.
你已下最后通牒
Once you made your ultimatum,
我躲在我的世界
I hid in my own world
你只是害怕一个人睡
You are just afraid of sleeping alone,
我不想再为你掉泪
I no longer want to cry for you again.
我了解不会变不再徘徊
I understand that you will never change,
I shouldn't ponder anymore
开始自己的明天
I'll start over again myself tomorrow..
-our
love story ;
Thursday, February 19, 2009
today is thurs.. haiz.. ytday dear go boat quay de white bar to celebrate ah lu bday.. he go there at 12.30am.. bt when he reach hm is around 6am in the morning.. i keep tinkin alot.. i dunno y i will tink so much.. is it bcoz i love him too much or there is other reason to it.. when he reach hm he throw temper at me.. mayb coz he drink too much or there's other reason.. i dunno y i jus can't feel any love frm him anymore.. i tink i was veri naive.. i thought dat if i continue treat him gd 1 day he will surely know it.. bt i dunno if i can wait till dat day.. haiz.. i feel dat our relationship is lik i keep on wantin to hold on to his hands tight bt he keep on wantin to let go.. why is it so.. in his eyes i'm jus a stupid person who is pretendin to b a gd person, a thief who will steal ppl moni n evertink i do is pretendin de.. i will nv get a place in his heart.. even when i tell him dat i was nt feelin well dan i wanna go see doc, he can jus reply u tell me for what, i'm nt a doc.. why must u hurt me again n again.. when i needed some1 by my side so much bt when i look around i only see dat i'm alone.. why is it so.. y is it always so unfair to me..
-our
love story ;
Thursday, January 22, 2009
today feelin veri sian.. haiz tis past few days dear keep on sayin wanna brin me go ba sa ba lam, bt in e end oso nv go.. ytday i play mj, i win $50+.. so heng.. hope my lucky will get better in the cumin yr.. i dunno y recently i bcumin veri easily gettin emotional.. i cry veri easily.. when i tink of the past and present.. it make me feel damn hurt.. y is heaven treatin me tis way.. wat hav i realy done dat make him wanna punish in tis way.. y all i hav done, i still haven get my repay?. why i need to always giv in to others bt nt they giv in to me.. why every1 is lyin to me.. why is every1 treatin me lik a fool.. why is dat i always need to see other ppl temper to cheer em up.. why is it so unfair to me.. new yr is cumin i dun feel happy at all.. i jus feel dat i'm al alone in tis world.. just by myself.. other dan me.. i feel others r all strangers.. even i do know em.. it jus feel as if i'm diff frm other.. i feel lik mayb i'm transparent.. no 1 can see me.. bt only i can see em.. dat's all i wanna say.. moody day..
-our
love story ;
Thursday, January 15, 2009
haiz.. chinese new yr is jus comin in 9days time.. haiz.. this few day i quarrelin wif dear over LV bag dat is meant to be my 2008 christmas present, our 3rd yr anniv present, my 22nd b'day present and valentine day present.. haiz.. dat bag cost at $1770.. actually i longing for a LV bag for a long time le.. and dear ask me wat i want for bday prsent dan i told him dat i 1 a LV bag.. dan he say ok, he will buy for me.. dan in between he lik nv buy n nv say abt tis tinks le.. and i was e 1 who is keep talkin abt it.. and he was so piss off and we keep quarrelin over tis.. haiz.. he can say till lik all is my fault.. pls lor is he who say he will buy for me.. dan i jus mention oso cannot.. why is he treatin me lik tis.. sometime i was wonderin am i dun worth jus a merly 1.7k.. and when u go drink or eat or buy tinks wif ur frens, sometime they dun even pay u e moni u oso nv say anytink.. althought those moni is merly a few hundreds dollar.. bt if tis always happen u can buy more dan 1 bag for me le.. for example.. the new yr for 2009 de.. around $600 u oso say is ok.. WTF.. i dun even worth more dan ur frens.. i am realy damn sad.. have u ever realy jus tink of my feelin for jus a sec.. and if tis is 4 present combain dat u only need to pay $442 for 1 present.. althought mayb it cost alot.. bt aft tis i wun ask for a more expensive present le.. bt u jus wun believe me... can't u jus trust me for a sec.. and u lik to push blame to me.. even it is nt my fault.. and u lik to scold mi.. u oso lik 2 find fault on me.. why u treatin me tis way.. hav u ever wonder hw my heart hurt.. watever i do is nt gonna be enough for u.. u wun ever feel gan dong de.. n watever i do u oso tink i dun deserve u to treat me gd back.. i am wondering.. is it bcoz u know no matter wat i wun leave u de.. so u jus treat me lik tis oso nth will happen de.. is it?. haiz.. don't he know my feelin for keep on lyin to me.. why is tinks always happenin tis way.. why is ppl keep on treatin me in a unfair way.. since bein a gd ppl is stupid y must i be a gd person.. FUCK MAN.. i realy had enough of all tis.. i goin to change myself into a FUCKIN BAD PERSON.. coz no 1 apperciate me for bein gd to em at all.. i dun wanna be a FOOL anymore..
-our
love story ;
ferlinHUANG!